...OuTpUt..!:P

... in the light of my experience ,i sum up

engineering studies like this.....

For 8 semesters we mug up the

theories and dig out "internals" directly proportional to the impressions left on the faculties....

Then the university applies a " random function "and adds to the topping...

For them,,,....some who hav had a blessing with both the above,,

companies come and apply a "La Placement transformation ".....

For the rest...,,they could rust....let down by the fact that they still have not had a

" four year transformation."....

hArI..:)

..the loop theory...

.... lines trying to speak about the emotions through which a person commiting a grave mistake for the first time in his life would go through....

you get inside..

the entry's smooth..

the entry's tempting..

you'll gaze..and stay amazed..

for the world would seem with no ends..

hued in an expansion..

so vivid so clear..

with colours of yur pleasure..

entangling that sphere

shifting your mood's gear..

with a rushing queer you will steer

into that space so near..

soon with the rest..

you'll join hands ..

sweating with the fun and joy

you'll never know

what and how, runs the show..

yet with the passing time..

with a charm, so anew,

topping a fondled hunch you just had..

for a breathe, you will pause..

"where are those lights

that showed me the way in.??

where are those hands

that had spread out to hold me..

where from came this darkness

that had totally got me wrecked ??"

seeking these answers to

yourself ,so awfully puzzled..

you will soon start to search

for a shoulder to weep on..

a corner to ease off...

a silent hole for yu to recline..

a fine twill to wipe off your grief..

filled with regrets ,

those inner voices,

turning harsh on you..

you'll struggle to find a way out.

to get as far ,from a place so bizzare.

to run free off the cuffs..

to your home so dear,,,yet so far...

roaming around with strain..

like someone not sane..

you will see the exit

slammed tight on you..

with no place to run into..

with no glow to throw some light..

you will stay confounded..

staring at the smiles

the faces at the entrance show up with..

"lo!my friend ...

this i would call..

is 'the forsaken theory of the loop'..."...

i hav called it the loop theory so becauze.....a mistake once made..would make the sinner to go on ahead with no fears for the mistakes he is responsible....of course ,they would definitely leave an imprint on his conscience...but he knows...innocence once lost is lost forever..and he remains in a twist and twirl with his mistakes and his regrets on doing them...

hArI..:)

..oru cheruppakaarante cheru katha..:)..

.."mone blade kond kalikkalle kai muriyum......."....njaan thudarnn vaayikaan thudangi..

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vaikiyilla...alarmthinte aadya muzhakkathode thanne njaan eneettu....kurach neramaayi

choodaayi nilkkunna avante rosham enne chodippikaan thodangiyitt....avan jayichu..

kannu thurann janaliloode purathekk nokkiye enne varavettath vijayathinte

punchiriyumaayi nilkuna sooryan...

" divasathinte thudakam thanne oru tholivilyiloode..alle..!?!?"njaan onnu veruthu aa

divasathe..

alakkiya shirt oodi nadann chaaya kudikkunnathinte idayil isthiri ittapol oru thully

shirtinum koduthu...insert cheyyunna baagam alle..kozhappamilla kara pinne kalayaam..

kara nallathaanu ennu etho oru puthiya alakku soapinte parasyam koode koode tvyil

parayunnath enikk orma vannu...

samayam 9:45 ..!

ini ippo odiyittum kaaryamilla..officil aadyapakuthiyude leave enthaayalum record cheyth

kaanum..

ucha kazhinj ethiyaal mathi..!

manassu veendum veendum aavarthichu kondirinnu...

...ammayundaayirunnenkil....veendum aa ormakal ennilekk kadannu vannu..

"saarillya mone ..jeevitham inganeyaanu....namukku vendathalla nammalilekk avan ethikkuka....ammak pokaan samayamaayenn maatram karuthi ente kuttan

vesamikkaathirkkya...."..raadhechiyude aa vaakukal ippozhum athe pole prathidhwanikkunnundaayirnnu innum ennil...

annoru vyazhazhchayaayirnnu..maasathile aadya vyazhaazhcha..

pandu achanum njaanum ammayum radhechiyum maasathile aaadya vyazhaazhchakalil

guruvaayoor pookumaayirnnu..

pakshe annu ..a vyaazhazhcha..amma thanichaanu kannane kaanan poyennu thonnunu..!!

.....njaan thalenn vaikeet thanne ammayod paranj vekkum.."amme raavile enikk oru idam

vare pokanund.."

mesha purath vechirikkunna alakki ,isthiri itta shirtum ,oru cup chood kattan kaapiyum

kandaayirikkum njaan unaruka....

divasithinu unarmayekunna oru ammayude snehavum valsalyavum aa shirtine

maarodanakkumbozhulla ilam choodu thattumbozhum aa kattankaapiyude maduram

irakkumbozhum njaan ariyaarundaayirinnu...

Marine drivile olangal thammil adikkunnna kand samayam neekunna ente oru pathivaayikondirikkunnu....

thalakk kuruke mathu pidippikkuna veyilil....

thanupil puthappikkunna nishayude ilam choodil...

udich varunna sooryante niravil...

nilaachandranil kulich nilkummbozhum.....palappozhumaayi njaan ivida vannirikkunnu..

njaan suparichithanaayirkkunnu e kaazhchakalumaayi.....

ratri bike'il 30 rupakk petrol adichath nannayi...varunna vazhi petrol pump vare

ethaanulla petrol avaru thanne nerachu thannu....

samayam 11:30 mani..

oru ara manikoorolam neram enikk ividam bandhichidaan aakumenn aagrahich njaan

aalilaatha oridam nooki irinnu...

kayalinte ange theeera attathekku nokki..

neela paravathaani pole vistheekarichu kedakkunna aakasathillekku nokki....

jeevitham manushyane padippikkunnath vyathasthamaaya paadangal aanu...

ororuthanum avantethaaya santhoshangal..avanu maatramayaa dukhangal..avantethennu

vilikkaavunna swakaaryangal...avanu thaalolikkaavunna ormakal....kevalam avane maatram

prerippikkunna swapnangal....jeevitham ithellam panku vechirikkunnu......

oru vidham pakarppum koodathe....yathoru tharathilulla pakshapaathangalum illathe panku

vechirikkunnu...

valare vegathayilaanu ellam maranjumaariyath .....

innale vare nadumuttath mazha kand oru cheru chiri choodi kidannurangiyirunna njaan

innitha ullil peyyunna mazhayude thaalathe beethiyoode kelkkuna ..mazhaye snehikaan

ariyaataha oruvanaayi maariyirkkunnu....

evidekkanu ente e yatra..aaranu enne nayikkunnath..

munnil maari marayunna roopangal..avar ennil vithachu pookuna puthiya aadarshangalude

vithukal.....aa adarshangaliloode yatra cheytha ennil unarnna vivechanam....ava padipicha

yaatharthyangal.....ellam oru computerile folder mathiri njaan "save" cheyth,,

"do not delete " enn label cheyth vechirkkunnu....

computerinte kaaryam orthapozzhaanu..officilekk pokaan neramaayi....

e software engineerude joli ennu paranjaal oru mushipp thanneyaanu....

palappozhum thonniyittund.....e joliyil manushyan computerine kond joli eduppikukayaano

atho computer manushyane kond paniyeduppikukayaanoon...?!?!....

samayam uchak 12:05 ...marine drive ippol saantham...

alleum natuchakk thalakk sthirathayullavar aarum ividam kaatu kollan varilla...

bike eduth officilekk.....

"vineeth.., did u finish coding dat module.??"..chenna paade seatil irinnu irunnila paade

kettath project managerude sthiram pallavi....

"yes sir..a few more lines to be edited n coded..i will be able to debug and submit the

final code by today evening sir"..thalkaala saanthikk oru marupadi koduthu.....

managerkum aswaasam enikkum oru cheru neduveerpinu avasaram....

engineering cheythath veruthe aayi poyoon thonnippich poovum e coding..4 varshathe

course onnum aavasyamilla ivide payattaan...ethenkilum oru institutil 2 varsham kond

pakuthi kaash kond padichidukaavunna Java allenkil C++..itrem mathi ivide oru nalla

engineer ennu peru veezhan..

..ammakaaayirinnu enne engineeringinu vidanamenna aagraham..veruthe oru

aagrahamalla...oru athyaavashyamaayirnnu ammak ath....plus two'vinu chernnapozhe amma

paranju thudangi..."mone...nannayi padikkanam...ozhapparuth..govt.engineering collegil

thanne seat kittanamenn..padikkaan enth aavasyamundenkilum..enth

budhimuttendenkilum ammayod paranjoolu.."....

ororutharkkum ororutharodum jeevithathil oro kadamakulund..oru kadappaadukalund..

ithil ethenn enikkipozhum thirichariyaarayittilla..ithil etho..allenkil iva randum

thanne..enne padippichu...engineeringinu govt.seatum kitti.....

mani ratri 8 aayi....code work iniyum thernattilla....

pakshe enikk pokaan samayamaayi....

kochiyile ratri traffic'ine enikk veruppaayirinnu..beethiyayirinnu...

vandikalude uchchathilulla nilavili enne ennathe pole innum parikopippichu...

oru reethiyil upamikkaavunnathe ullu....

idungiya vazhiyiloodeyulla oodi paanju pokunna e thirakkulla yatraye nammude

jeevithagathiyayitt...

enthennilaathe ..evidekkennilaathe oddunna oru koottam jeevikal....

undaakam chilavaril aa agni chirakukal....ennal oduvil ava odinju nilamparishaakunnathu

kaanunna eka driksaakshi -jivitham...

..oodi theerunna vazhiyil udich pongunna karutha pukapoleyaanu innu njaan...

kore poonnu e vazhiyuloode....oru lakshyamillathe sancharichu ..aarum vazhikaanikaan

illatha paathakaliloode...

viramikkaam e yaantrika bramanathil ninnu...aalochichu..chinthichu..urappichu...

samayam ippol ratri 11 mani...veetilethiyappo oru 9:30 aayi kaanum...vannapaade

irikkunnathanu diary'kk munnil...

ini ezhuthaan onnumilla....ithode theerukayaanu e diary'yude page'um...

collegilekk vannapol amma kayyil thannu vittathaanu ee diary...divasavum ezhuthaan....

ennill ennokke enthokke ethenkilum reethiyil

unarnnatundo...nilakonduninnitundo..asthamichittundo..avayellam e pusthakathile

page'kulalil alinju chernnattund....

..varunna vazhikk 325 rupak vaangiya 7'0'clock blade ente kayyil ninnu vazhuthiveenu..

tharayil ninn athedukkumbol ente manassil evidennenennariyaathe urakke uchathil ente

amma parayunnathu kettu..

"mone blade kond kalikkalle kai muriyum......."....njaan a vaakukal kurichittu.....

...annum kai murinj chora vaarnnappol njaan odiyath mattarudeyum adukalekkalla pakshe

ente ammayude adukalekk thanne...

ente theeratha Jeevithamaaya sotware'inte code aareyum elpikkathe....

upekshicha paathayil ninn kathikarinj pongunna oru lesham pukayaayi....

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signed:vineeth....

Thursday ,may 5 ,

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...ennatheyum pole avan vyathasthanaayirnnu..maranam vareyum........

..Settling into the new space.My Treasured Trash..:).."

..so yu finally are in a trash.!!!!
......welcome to my treasured trash..!:)
i hav been reading too many blogs dese days....been following some regularly...n also been commenting on some recntly..!
..and sure..it did turn out to me dat ..is'nt it a good idea to stuff my inside stuff onto one blog space..?!?! how wud it b to be a part of the blogosphere..?!??
well..it was den d confusion of a personal diary and jotting on a blogspace arose..!!
and being an ardent fan & student of engineering..i always had dis habit of supplementing one part of my confusions with its advantages over the other part.!! so did i treat this case of blogging against a DIARY.!
i had a set of points advocating a blog over the P.D although i seemed to dig up more of the advantages d later had..! this was truly d working of human mind -..to hold on timidly ..to exponent the "no-matter-wot"thing yu favour and are plugged into..:)

i strted mounting the plus points of keeping a blog over a diary..unreasoningly..and got finalised wid 5 bullets dropping dwn.!

1. a blog is unreachable to amma's hand..!obviously i knew d same blog could b sighted many on the net.!..but still..i thought.."not my amma neways..!"..)

2.i was online 24*7..so working on a blog wud go as a part of it..!(well wot if the current goes..?!wot if my system itself crashes out.?!!?..i answered:i hav my net accessible mob.!)

3. i need not hav to remmbr whre i kept my blog last time aftr jotting down .!(..but whre d heck hav i stored d passwrd to get into my blog space.?!?!? )

4.i love typing on d qwerty board.!!( rolling a pen been boring after all..!)

5..i really really really wanted to blog .!!well couldn't dat be d best reason to hav popped all d above 4 petty whyfor's..!:)

yeah....it hit my mind like dis wen i finally strtd writin one fo d frst time..."yea..my blogs could alleviate someone who has had d same kind o bad day like i had one today..!."
.."yeah my blogs might help someone..somebody to ease out with a smile...They might help some one think...might be handy fo someone to while time on d www space.."
and yeah...it wud be most benefactorial to me..d blogger..to help losen my tight mind..to help ooze out the countless thoughts.."
and so did the Treasured Trash strtd getting filled..!:)
to say ..This is a trash...i fill dis one with all d crap n chunks...and to also say..This also include dose that are not to be in a trash..!!..yea..! cuz i am one guy who has had some problems in finding wot goes a hogwash n wot remains sensible.!!
i guess its so cause i had been thru times wen many things..(many people too.!) which n whom i had held close ..i had valued hav proved to me as irrational and i also hav had some surprises popping up..and i see them holding a placard.."why d hell did u ignore us..?!?!"..so it has been pretty natural to me keep myself from distinguishing from wot is to be locked and wot has to be left free..:)
And excuse me for dis wen i tag my blog..."My Treasured Trash.."..cus i treasure dem ....knowingly...,, at d same time ..unknowingly..:)..